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One year ago Evan asked me to be his girlfriend and here we are now one year later and I am in awe of how much Evan has loved me. Evan has shown me more love then any one else I know. And Evans knows me and understands me more than anyone I know! I am so thankful for his heart, his patience with me and his smile! So happy that God made you and placed you in my life :) I cannot wait to be your wife in 9ish months! Thank you for an incredible year, I am excited for the many more to come! I love you so much! 😘❤😍💏

Sitting in staff meeting and we are having a prayer experience. I’m at the point where we can draw, sketch or journal about what it means for our soul to stop and rest in God.

To me, to stop and rest in God it just really means to stop everything I am doing and just sit in awe of how big and great God truly is. He IS my rock. He IS my fortress.

When everything else around me is falling apart, God stands firm. He is my rock. He is constant. And for that I praise Him.

If I didn’t surrender to Him when I did, I know I would be dead right now. And I am so thankful that I’m not. I have learned so much about life, myself and God. I have learned that even when I suck at life and fail at everything….He still loves me and wants to continue to have a relationship with me.

Well that’s about all the time I can spend journaling.


The Lucky One

So I have been pretty focused on myself lately and I don’t like that at all. And Evan somehow still loves me through allllll of it. 

I honestly am so lucky and blessed. I do not know how or why I deserve Evan, but for some reason God wanted us to be together and for that I am so thankful. 

I just read a really cool article about 20 things this woman wants to tell newly engaged or married people, but I thought it applied to me and my life right now and I wanted to share it. 

1. Marriage is made up of two good forgivers. Because every marriage is made up of two sinners. (Romans 3:23)

2. At some point, you will have to learn that life isn’t all about you. (Philippians 2:3)

3. Don’t listen to women that tell you that passion fades…it doesn’t have to! (um…all of Song of Solomon)

4. Don’t give up. Love never fails. (1 Cor. 13)

5. He wants a kind wife, not a maid or another mother. Be nice. (Galatians 5:22-23)

6. Give your husband the gift of your respect.  He needs it more than you know. (Ephesians 5:33)

7. Be mindful of your expectations.

8. Honor the Lord above all things. Colossians 3: 17

9. Find your worth and security in the Lord, and don’t look to your husband to meet all of your needs.

10. Be very careful about reading romance novels, they set you up for an unrealistic view of romance.

11. Real romance is finding that one spot in the crook of his arm to snuggle into, that shared look over the dinner table when the kids are acting crazy, and the way he fixes the leaky sink when he is dog-tired after work.

12. Love is about relationship.  The more I love my husband, and seek a relationship with him, the less critical and duty-bound I become.  It is similar to my relationship with God.

13. Be thankful for the husband you have. Accept him as he is, not for what you want him to be.

14. Don’t compare!! Don’t buy into the game of comparing him with anyone else’s husband.

15.The Biblically “normal” marriage is filled with joy, connection, laughter, and peace. It’s not free of hurt feelings and conflict, but they know how to process their pain with one another so that they live more often in a meadow than at the scene of a train wreck.  This is not the average marriage, but it normal – -because it is a visible display of Jesus’ relationship with His bride (Ephesians 5:22-33).

16. Your marriage is a testimony! “The #1 evangelistic tool in America (the world) today is a successful marriage, because it’s a living miracle!” – Dr. Joe Aldrich, former president of Multnomah Bible College.

17. Pray for your marriage. Pray hard.

18.I’ve heard that is gets better with age.  I have to say in my short {13 year} experience, that is so true.

19. Where there is God, there is always hope. Even for the most broken marriages. “With God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26)

20.Marriage is commitment and sacrifice. But it’s also the best, most wild ride you will ever have with your best friend.

This makes me reevaluate the way I treat Evan and helps me know the correct way I should handle things. Thankful for this truth today.


God is changing a lot of things up lately. My desires….are different now then they were four months ago. I have prayed, and prayed and prayed about this…and I know what God is calling me to, but it just has some backlash. 

This decision that I am eventually going to have to make is weighing so hard on my heart. It is really draining me and I am nervous about what will happen to certain relationships when I make this choice. 

I just want everyone to know that this is what I feel God is calling me to do. And it’s VERY important to go where God is leading you. 

So here is to upcoming changes…..

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